Trying to remain hopeful

I realize its been awhile since my last post. I have been extremely busy with mom stuff and more health issues. The medicine they have me on isn't working very well, so I have an appointment coming up to find out more options and probably more tests.

I had an ultrasound at the beginning of the week that confirmed I have ovarian cysts. I find out the 26th if surgery will be needed to remove them. I have an MRI that needs scheduled because my prolactin levels were pretty high and that typically indicates a tumor on the pituitary gland. Yep, I got 1 problem fixed and a bunch more are gonna surface. I'm left wondering if all of these problems are somehow linked to one giant issue?

Also, my hubby is having issues of his own now. He's been nauseated for weeks and will often throw up if he eats his regular portion sizes (which is usually like 4 servings of something in one sitting lol).  He either has given himself an ulcer from all the stress he's been under or has a gallbladder issue. He went and got an ultrasound of the gallbladder today, checking for stones. I hope everything turns out fine with him and its just something simple like an ulcer. He used up all of call off days for my surgery and can't take off for a surgery of his own.

Even though all of this shit is going on, I am hopefully that things will turn out alright. Maybe it's silly to believe in symbolism, maybe it's not. But this morning, I opened my door to leave and standing about 1 foot in front of me was a red cardinal. My first thought was that it was hurt because as I bent down to look at it, it didn't move. I pet his little head and then picked it up. It didn't try to flap or run away from me. Jenna came out and was petting it. After about a 5 minute visit, the cardinal flew away. It wasnt hurt and was able to fly that whole time. After an Internet search, it said that cardinals have a symbolism that they can appear in dreams as a sign that in times or darkness or uncertainty that everything is going to be alright. Now, I didn't dream about it so I dont know if the meaning is the same....but kinda odd how a cardinal appeared on my porch and let me hold and pet it during such a hard time right now. So who knows? Maybe this was a sign from God that everything is going to be alright.

I sure hope so.